internship and other such things

yeah... so apparently i havent really been posting anything basically ever... not my intention. life has kindof been getting away from me. there are so many things to do or so many things just occupying my thoughts... i just dont even remember this thing exists sometimes. i want to be more solid about this, but i honestly could never promise that. but i will write something now... with the hopes that i will write again later...

so... whats going on in my life.... well... i have been trying to find an internship... i really dont know where it will happen. i have one opportunity in front of me... and it seems like an interesting one. the worship leader at this church is known as the associate pastor of creative arts and communication. i understand his reasoning behind this title. he doesnt want people thinking that worship is just on sunday mornings when he gets up and plays some music... i have a feeling though that me and him would get into some theological arguments.... tasteful ones... yet arguments none the less.... he holds some ideas that go along with this new style known as emerging worship. this is a very interesting concept, and it intrigues me... but i am unsure my thoughts on the entire thing. we are called to bring praise to God with psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs.... yes.. that doesnt and i dont think should be used to exclude other forms of worship, but it shouldnt be ignored either. something he said the other night makes me think this. he told me that worship should be whatever a person is gifted in and talented in being offered up to God, and if there is an entire church of tone deaf people, music should be left out... i think that is a extreme... i mean first of all i dont think it possible to have an entire church of tone deaf people... but the bible specifically calls for us to bring music to the Lord. it is as a pleasing aroma to Him. yes, i am sure we should use everything he have... everything we do in the worhsip of our God... but we shouldnt exclude worship. God doesnt care if the music is in tune... if it is a fantastic show... he just wants to see our hearts poured out on an alter before His feet. there is so much that can be expressed in music that can be said in music... expressions that make corporate worship logical. we can all sing a song to the Lord together, as one body, but we cannot tangibly paint a picture as one to bring it to Him. each person trying will be thinking different things and meaning different things... it wont be the body as one. YES! Paint in Honor of God. DANCE in HIS HONOR. BUILD in HIS HONOR. DO WHAT YOU LOVE IN HIS HONOR. but music is a tool, an offering that is hard to match. and even if there isnt one person in the church that can hold a tune... it is still called for.

but anyway.... i still wonder.... i know there are things there that will stretch me... mold me... and i really honestly dont know how the church functions in its entirety. and i should go at least once before deciding anything... so i will... i just wonder if this is the right place.. can i be a creative arts intern... i dont know... that is interesting to me.... it provokes a lot of thoughts as i am sure you can tell.. :) but alright... whatelse is going....

i am currently trying to figure out my rooming situation for next year.... i think i am almost there.... my current roommate still might be my roommate for next year... but i just dont know how it would work... she might move to this thing called the ministry house... which would mean i need to find another roommate... which i am currently trying to do... it is kind of stressful... but ok... i know i will get it all handled... i am just trying to get some loose ends worked out.... it should be fine.... but yeah... thats about it... maybe i will post again... soon enough.