so... i just got back from theatre state competition. it was fun. we did really well and it was great actually performing on a real stage... a lot different from that recital hall stage. in all actuality i think we should have won.. but we are a small christian school and we dont have a program... and heck who would let a play with such a strong christian message go through like that... but it was fun. it was definitely interesting trying to live with so many people for a weeks time... i now definitely know that i am an introvert. i was ready to strangle several people before the week was out... but it is ok. that is life right... i am home. i get to relax a little.
i decided while there not to really do any homework... i brought some stuff to read... but that was really it. that was really nice. because of that.. i got the time to rest that was given to us. so i wasnt going going going... and then resting times werent filled with frantic homework. that was really nice... but now that i am back... all that i want to do still is sleep. i think i will probably go to bed early and hope that i dont have anything that i really need to get done... maybe that will be ok... we'll see.
i skipped church for the first time in a long time today. it was nice... got to sleep in. i feel like church has become a task for me to do. i hate that. the way that i have begun to view things regarding God is a little wrong... i need to get away from this task idea. like oh i need to pray today... or oh.. i need to go to church. i need to be a part of this or that... that isnt the focus at all. i want to be one with Him. my focus should be on the desire to be on with my Lord. a part of the great imperfect bridegroom of the perfect groom. so missing church was nice. it helped me to get out of this idea that i need to go. i should go... but not for that reason. so yeah... that is enough of that... until next time
