internship and other such things

yeah... so apparently i havent really been posting anything basically ever... not my intention. life has kindof been getting away from me. there are so many things to do or so many things just occupying my thoughts... i just dont even remember this thing exists sometimes. i want to be more solid about this, but i honestly could never promise that. but i will write something now... with the hopes that i will write again later...

so... whats going on in my life.... well... i have been trying to find an internship... i really dont know where it will happen. i have one opportunity in front of me... and it seems like an interesting one. the worship leader at this church is known as the associate pastor of creative arts and communication. i understand his reasoning behind this title. he doesnt want people thinking that worship is just on sunday mornings when he gets up and plays some music... i have a feeling though that me and him would get into some theological arguments.... tasteful ones... yet arguments none the less.... he holds some ideas that go along with this new style known as emerging worship. this is a very interesting concept, and it intrigues me... but i am unsure my thoughts on the entire thing. we are called to bring praise to God with psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs.... yes.. that doesnt and i dont think should be used to exclude other forms of worship, but it shouldnt be ignored either. something he said the other night makes me think this. he told me that worship should be whatever a person is gifted in and talented in being offered up to God, and if there is an entire church of tone deaf people, music should be left out... i think that is a extreme... i mean first of all i dont think it possible to have an entire church of tone deaf people... but the bible specifically calls for us to bring music to the Lord. it is as a pleasing aroma to Him. yes, i am sure we should use everything he have... everything we do in the worhsip of our God... but we shouldnt exclude worship. God doesnt care if the music is in tune... if it is a fantastic show... he just wants to see our hearts poured out on an alter before His feet. there is so much that can be expressed in music that can be said in music... expressions that make corporate worship logical. we can all sing a song to the Lord together, as one body, but we cannot tangibly paint a picture as one to bring it to Him. each person trying will be thinking different things and meaning different things... it wont be the body as one. YES! Paint in Honor of God. DANCE in HIS HONOR. BUILD in HIS HONOR. DO WHAT YOU LOVE IN HIS HONOR. but music is a tool, an offering that is hard to match. and even if there isnt one person in the church that can hold a tune... it is still called for.

but anyway.... i still wonder.... i know there are things there that will stretch me... mold me... and i really honestly dont know how the church functions in its entirety. and i should go at least once before deciding anything... so i will... i just wonder if this is the right place.. can i be a creative arts intern... i dont know... that is interesting to me.... it provokes a lot of thoughts as i am sure you can tell.. :) but alright... whatelse is going....

i am currently trying to figure out my rooming situation for next year.... i think i am almost there.... my current roommate still might be my roommate for next year... but i just dont know how it would work... she might move to this thing called the ministry house... which would mean i need to find another roommate... which i am currently trying to do... it is kind of stressful... but ok... i know i will get it all handled... i am just trying to get some loose ends worked out.... it should be fine.... but yeah... thats about it... maybe i will post again... soon enough.

BACK

alright well i am back at school... it has been a couple of weeks now... classes are going alright... there are a couple that definitely frustrate me more than i wish. but that is ok.. i am almost done i think with my insane semesters. i have started to think about next year and classes as well as leadership positions i wish to pursue. i am thinking about either the assistant director of cause. cause being the ministries that jbu has. or i am considering RA of possibly the townhoues. i dont know... we will see that is for sure. but i have also started thinking about my internships. i have to do 2. i want to do 1 at a record label. that is after all what i am thinking i want to do in my future. who knows if that is going to happen. i am excited about it though. i dont know when i am going to though. i know next summer is technically when i should do it... but i am a little concerned with the fact that i kindof want to go back to jordan and that is that summer. i really miss it there. it was a lot of fun and i made a lot of friends. maybe someday... but i have a feeling that it wont be until a while from now... stink huh... oh well... that is about it for now... i will write more later.

home

i made it through finals. barely. i am sure some of you know what a close call it was. i passed though. and i made it through all 9 finals. but yeah... i think that is all i really need to say. too tired right now to actually write anything more.

FINALS!!!!

yes it is that time of the year. the time when those 9 classes really start to add up. but i am proud to say that i am down to 2. 7 down, 2 to go. man.. it has been a long and exhausting semester. i will be glad once it is over. i am still stressed about passing a class... but i asked the prof and he said that i should pass. i will be happy just to see a C on that transcript or even a D. i have worked my butt off in that class and do not want to take it again next year. it is rough and i am not good at it. it is one of my 2 finals i have left. it is actually my last final scheduled. kindof scary. i will definitely be glad to get it over with. oh... i found out today that due to a shortage of people in class voice, i will be taking private lessons next semester. that should be interesting. it will definitely allow for more individual vocal work, but it also required a lot more out of a person. i just hope that i am ready for it. you know what i mean. it will be interesting. oh and this is funny. i have started teaching lessons here. a few kids in the neighborhood come to me for guitar lessons. it is really funny. my number is being passed around to the mom's. and i am gradually gaining in students. right now i have 2. i expect at least 1 more next semester. it is nice to have that extra little bit of money every week. it is just funny. i actually have some cash in my pocket. definitely something i am not used to. but yeah... that is life right about now. stressful, but interesting. i am gonna end up staying at school a couple extra days. i have a wedding to go to. a couple friends are getting married. should be fun. so i wont get to town until saturday night most likely. i am looking forward to a little bit of sleep. tomorrow afternoon... i am gonna crash... and it is going to be sweet. and then friday... i will sleep in. and saturday... get in the car... check out of the dorm... go to a wedding and then come home.... it will be amazing..... but alright... i will talk to you guys later.

the weekends pass

well life is still progressing here at good ol JBU. I just registered for classes for next semester... and surprise surprise... i cant fit everything i need to again.... oh well... i guess there is always next time. so... i am investigating going abroad for a semester. i dont know how it will work out though... and i must say it is getting a little frustrated with it. it seems that sense i am so ahead in core classes... that there is nothing that i can really take anywhere... so i will just be wasting hours there... and i dont have those hours to waste. its crazy they make you take certain classes when you go places... and they wont fit anywhere in the things that i need. so if i go.... it seems that i will probably just be making other semesters really hard or i will be adding a semester at the end. i dont know if it is really worth it... because i am still gonna have to bust my butt where ever i go that semester. so i dont know. i would love to study somewhere else for a semester but i just dont know how it is going to work out. if anyone has a suggestion please let me know... i found this one program in australia that seems like it would work fairly well... but i talked to a music teacher and the classes dont line up exactly right... and i wouldnt be covering exactly the same material... so yeah... yay.... im not sure how that is going to be handled. i'm sure ill figure it out. but please if you know anyway that might work... let me know.... im pretty open to anything.

Soccer

well... ok... strange thing... i think i am on the soccer team at school now. i have been missing the sport and getting to play a couple times this summer really fed that. so i talked to the coach. apparently there were some injuries to some of their players and they need some people. so yeah... i went out to practice... and really realized how out of shape i am... but he said keep coming out and i should be put on the roster by next week. this i think will prove to interesting. i wont be any big field player or anything... i dont think i could last... but i will be a sub so others can rest some. it should be interesting to see how this progresses. i dont know how long i will do it though.... it all depends on if i can handle it or not. so far it seems reasonable. no more than highschool soccer. a couple hours a day. now the challenge is getting back into shape.... we will see.

howdy all

alright.. i actually have some time to write something. well actually i dont... but i ran out of things to do at work. so here i am. life has been going alright.... some aspects are good some not as good. but hey what ya gonna do. thus is life right. i find myself really missing jordan sometimes. things there are so nicely slow paced. i loved it. things here are so hectic. i still havent finished my classes for jordan. i now officially have two F's on the transcript. oh how life is grand. it will get done though. soon enough. i have only two papers left. maybe... just maybe i can get one done this weekend. wouldnt that be amazing.

but yeah... enough of that... it's good to be back on campus after fall break. i really love the people and the community that JBU gives me. it's just what i need at this point in my life. i know these friends will always stand by me... and i hope that i can do the same for them.

oh... and for some things that i have been learning.... i never really thought about this... but i think it may be true.... there really are such things as love languages... some give things... some give time... some use touch... some use encouraging words.... and so on.... its just interesting... what i still have yet to learn... but really want to learn is how to receive love in a sincere way that is not necessarily the way that you best receive love. for example... i dont really receive giving as love... i would much rather have touch and quality time and stuff like that... kind words... and so on... gifts dont mean as much to me... but i want to learn how to see that and accept that kindof love as more than just a physical gift and have mean love.... if anyone has suggestions... let me know.